Colossians 3:23-24 “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ.”

-Missing the mark/ Reflections

This year I’ve realized in more ways than one my lack of giving my best. That somehow, I’ve become accustomed to giving 85%, 95%, but not 100% in all my endeavors. I’ve even rationalized excuses in my mind to explain away the ‘why’ but at the end of the day, I know when I am operating at a level beneath my abilities. It starts in the spiritual, then translates to the physical. This season, I’ve found it especially difficult to focus on God at times. Even to the point of being ok with the crumbs of drive by prayers, robotic devotionals, and a seemingly shallow relationship. Chalking it up to the ‘busyness’ of life.

This year, I’ve experienced the lack of discipline, consistency and commitment and how everything is connected. My lack of intentionality with the Lord, bleeds out into every aspect my daily life… the struggle is real. As I’ve heard it said before, the enemy is full time and relentless and we cannot afford to have a ‘part time’ relationship with God. My Father is always faithful but am I faithful with the small things He has placed in my hands? Faithful to the time He has allotted me to have… the list goes on. God takes His time, but lately I’ve been in a 100-yard rush, to go no where. As I lay these things before the Lord in full view, I began to take a spiritual inventory of my own affairs. God knows what He has placed in each one of us, and He knows when we are giving the bare minimal. Relationships are intentional, there’s no autopilot.

As I reflect on the verses in the book of Lamentations, I am grateful God’s mercies are new every morning. I am grateful Abba gently pushes us to come higher in Him, and I am grateful for His abundant grace.