Psalm 77:11-12

“I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.”

As I sit and type my very first blog, many thoughts flood my mind.. God has hard wired me in such a way that I have a heighten sense of self awareness… always expressing myself through various art forms. I entertained the idea of starting a blog post some time ago, but never really got around to it.

For the first time, in a long time I was joyous to be able to spend time with my Father.. Abba. Over the last few weeks, I found myself struggling at wanting to want Him. Wanting to spend time with Him without it feeling like a routine or check list. I raise my hand and admit I’ve been guilty on more than one occasion of being on autopilot. My heart desperately searched for that secret place in Him.

The Lord reminded me of the cares of this world, and how they choke out the Word (Mark 4:19). Over the last few weeks, I had allowed cares to creep in and choke the Living Word from my life. Cares of work, cares of acceptance, the unknown… none of which provided any peace. I had allowed the enemy to rob me of my joy. I was reminded today of the beautiful gift that God has given…a day to just rest in Him. This morning I got up, and went at my own pace. No sense of time really, just existing in Him. I enjoyed watching one of my favorite Christian youtubers, was able to get some fresh air, and really enjoyed the simplicity of the day. As I looked around my apartment, I couldn’t help but reflect at how far the Lord has brought me, His outpouring of goodness in my life. Much more than material things, but fullness of Life itself, purpose and meaning. I was deeply reminded of the grace and mercy of God. After my time of reflection, I was giddy to delve into His everlasting Word. My heart begin to sing melodies of gratefulness:

“Sometimes I want to get lost in You…..sometimes I want to get lost in You, Father… I want to get lost in You, Jesus…lost in You Abba…”